Hushh…. Shhh shhh shhh…
His voice was heavy, silencing the voice around him he put one of his fingers on his lips, feeling his fast paced breaths – shaky and terrified.
After all this time, here he stood, in this dark room – shady, cold, untouched – he stood with him.
Stop crying. He shouted. It’s going to be over soon. I’d say soon before you know but then I won’t lie. It’s not going to be that soon. No. I won’t be making it that easy for you.
His nerves filled with vicious memories, with his dark imaginings and his presence and helplessness made every feeling worthy somehow.
There was a tension in the atmosphere and then there was a desire. There was silence for a minute or two but it didn’t last long.
I want you to live this moment. I want you to suffer. Inch by inch, every moment will remind of what you did and I’ll rejoice as you cry loud and louder in pain, begging for mercy.
I want you to live the moment you die.But don’t let my words fool you. You’d want to die many times before I am done with you tonight. So strap in.
He burst out in laughter. Ironical to his senses which only wanted to let out the anger in him. His eyes spoke what his veins denied to show, and everything cooled his sense of being and his soul. He breathed every single time he hesitated.
“Sorry, forgive me, I forgot you are already strapped in.” He said grinning at his face looking at him strapped to the chair from which he was constantly trying to escape. Every time he moved he tried a little harder, moving his whole body, using every muscle in his body to free himself but none of it was doing him any good.
On the other hand he was enjoying every moment of it. He was relishing looking at his face which was filled with thousands of expressions– desperateness, frightened, tired, terrified yet challenging somehow restless to get out from there.
Ahh…. How many times do I have to tell you? Don’t try, give in to it. Trust me it is better that way. Enjoy your suffering, don’t fight back.
He suddenly moves close to him and stares him right into his eyes that are full of tears, anguish, pain and anger. “Tell me, do you feel it? Do you feel the pain, the feeling of helplessness?” He whispers into his ears.
Can you see all your world disappear from your sight while you desperately try to hold on, to think of ways to escape this, only to find that there is no way out of it.
This is how it feels. It is happening.No one’s coming here. No one, to save you.Yeah. You heard that. No one to save you, no one to disturb us.
He gives in and starts crying. Somehow the eyes that moments ago were full of anger were begging for mercy now.His lips shivering, his hands constantly trying to slip away, his face trying not to give up and show the real feelings hidden inside but now he was done. He was scared, the reality of what was happening to him became clear.
For him it was different. Every single second, as the clock ticked by, it was happening, like a dream come true. He could feel himself again seeing him suffer and struggle. He lived as he saw him trying to survive somehow.
Oh no no no, look at yourself, all sweaty, eyes full of tears.You see I want you to die several deaths before I kill you. Do you remember? Or have you forgotten? He said, his voice growing harsh. This time his voice had more pain than hatred for him.
He spoke without letting out his breath. Talking like he had wanted to do this all his life, making him shiver and beg for his life.
Did you think you’d get away from it? Just like that? Facing no repercussions of what you did? Hey, look at me, tell me now were you really naïve enough to believe that? Well you almost did, didn’t you? But then your happy days are over and trust me the bad ones would be too when I am done with you.
Constantly moving back and forth across the room, screaming and shouting at him every now and then keeping his sight fixed at his face, feeling disgust and happiness at the same time he continued to torture him. There was a pool of blood under the chair he was tied to. He looks at the blood and smiles. All of it was making him happy. For once in the past two years, for once after that day his eyes were sparkling. But it wasn’t joy that made his eyes shine. He wasn’t happy, he was satisfied. It was satisfaction that made him smile and grin. The day had come. Revenge would be his.
Hey, hey hey…. He shouted at him patting him on his face. Are you losing consciousness? No no no no. Not yet, not just yet. He shook him worried that he might lose his senses. You have to be awake, listen. I am about to tell you a tale.
Unresponsive he sat there on the chair, strapped to it with a piece of cloth inside his mouth and tape preventing it from coming outside. He feared he was out of his senses and to wake him up he pressed hard on one of his several wounds. He regained consciousness shouting, begging for mercy once again. The piece of cloth did less to hide his pain and seeing him crying and fighting with pain made him happy and feel alive.
Yeah, a tale, he continued as if nothing happned.
Think it of as a bed time story if you will, a story I tell you before I put you to sleep. His eyes sad looking into the other’s scared.
Yeah. You get it don’t you? I am going to tell you my story. You see, I’d like you to remember what brought you to this. I think you might have forgotten but then I doubt it. Still I don’t care, I think you’d like to hear what you shouldn’t have done. I think you should refresh your memories with the details so that you succumb to the feeling of guilt even before I kill you.
Wasn’t it a night like this? Full moon, quiet but chaotic?
He began moving towards the window moving away from him remembering his darkest memories, the ones that made him what he was now.
Oh yes, it was, I remember. I remember it quite well. How can I forget Confidence broke into his voice and his eyes saddened – lost in the thoughts – recalling his nightmares, he started talking,
“After all, I lost everything I had, that night and you helped them take it away from me.”
…….To be continued.
–Md Saemul Haque Noori
Edited by– Cauvery Chauhan
Image Credit- Helen Rushbrook