The final chapter.

Ask me and I’ll tell you how easy it was,

Ask me and I’ll tell you how happy I am, how happy I was.

I still remember the days when the sky was blue

And there was still some green in the grass.

Oh how beautiful were those days when,

I didn’t need to maintain this façade.

Funny it is how it seems to be a memory from the past,

even though I lived it in every moment that passed.

Its been a year since I have been faking it all

And it hasn’t done me any good.

I keep wondering if it time to stop,

Maybe I should.

It has been a year since I have smiled,

Yet it’s all you see me do every day.

And it’s been a year since I have cried,

But it is all I I do every day.

But I don’t think I can take it anymore,

So look away for its summer and it may not rain,

Look away for its time I give in to this gut wrenching pain.

Look away now for it is time I cry,

And don’t you dare stop me, don’t you ever try,

For it is all I can do now.

For this is all I count on somehow.

Though I know what I mourn for,

I still wonder why I cry for the things that are now in the past.

For since the beginning I have known the fact that,

Nothing beautiful ever lasts.

I have heard love makes people lose their mind, doesn’t it?

Now I know it for sure,

Haven’t I been writing all this for you, knowing that you won’t read it?

 

© Md. Saemul Haque Noori

The Sweetest Song.

I find myself lost amongst the crowd

Desperately trying to hide all my pain by a shroud.

Though I have been alone all my life,

These days loneliness stings like I am stabbed by a knife.

Knowing that in no time you will be gone,

Tell me, how can I just carry on?

That’s why I wish I would have never loved you,

But some things you can’t undo.

It is me who knew what we had was rare,

And with it, there was nothing that could compare.

Though I can keep trying looking for love all my life

I know I won’t find it while I am alive.

Because no one can fill the void you left,

The day you left.

And that’s when I wish I could forget how happy you made me

But some things you can’t do.

Things are getting hard for me and now I know

It is finally time for me to let you go.

For I know that no matter what I do,

Sometime soon you will be in a stranger’s bed.

And it is in those moments that I wish that I were dead

But when have I wanted something that I could get?

That’s when I wish I could turn off my feelings for you,

But some things you can’t do.

I don’t know who I am without you,

But it won’t hurt to know.

And that’s why I beg you,

Get out from my thoughts.

Leave me alone, just go.

© Md. Saemul Haque Noori

If Only..

There you were, ready to leave

And there I stood with my hear weaved.

Putting myself together I saw you go

How much it hurt me,

I always wanted you to know.

But something in the moment didn’t seem right

Could it be that I wasn’t the only one to cry?

Now that I know that it was like so,

I wish that either one of us could let go

Of the secrets which our hearts had concealed.

I wonder what our life would have been

If both our hearts were healed.

©Md. Saemul Haque Noori

An excerpt from a book I can’t complete

The letter

…..whenever I am in pain I remember you and even a mere thought of you lessens it a great deal, whenever I hurt myself I remember the touch of your warm hands and magically the pain vanishes and whenever I weep in the grief of losing you to someone else, I feel you there, sitting by my side saying that ‘I am here’, and ‘I won’t leave you’ and that you will be by my side till death do us part, and then for once in those moments I fear death, I fear of losing you once more and then my eyes wash away all the smile from my face that you gift me by saying those lines.